22 May 2013

Happy birthday Paps x


Oops, kind of just revealed his age.

To the king of my heart, my Royal Highness, to the backbone of the family, to the one who contributed to bringing me to life, to the man who never fails to pamper and shower me not with goods nor materials but with endless love & care, to that man who shops for my clothes when I was young and occasionally still do, to that man whose full of sarcasm, to the man that tries very hard to give nothing but the best to his family, to the man that gives his all to sustain the living of the family, to the ever so grumpy man who nags at everything little small things, to the man that listens to me when I starts complaining about how much workload I have, to the man who never complains about picking me up, sending me home or waiting for me, to the man who never fails to make fun of me by saying things like, "You are getting married at 18!!" ever since young but deep down I knew, I just knew he will never be ready for his little girl to get married at anytime, to the father of 3 pain in the ass children, to the Ah Gong of 2 furballz, to the husband of my dearest mother, to my father,

Happy Birthday Daddy Dearest! ♥

"Dad", just 3 alphabets but consist of many different meanings and sometimes, emotions. When I was young, Dad appears to be a person full of nothing but anger. 101 reasons why I used to hate seeing him in the office was his roller-coaster emotions. We all hated how strict he was. Everything is a big NO NO, not negotiable and don't even bother trying to manja your way off to get something. It just NEVER works. The more you do it, the more irritated he gets. What I mean is external goods like handphones, trolley bag, barbie dolls, nice pink pencil box, etc does not come easy.

At this phase of life, the word Dad, brings another meaning to it. Besides still, nothing comes very easy nor handy, my dad's temper had amazingly vanished into thin air. Obviously it didn't happen over the night. But I guess the fam haz got to agree that our papa is so much easier to communicate with now as compared to how he was when we were younger? I enjoy just sitting next to him doing our own things in the living room, or watch the tv together. He still occasionally inputs some lame ass jokes or suggestions out of pure randomness. But as the amount of white hair increases, it also meant that his little girl haz grown over the years.

Thankful that there were never any big major arguments/disagreements in this family. I cannot be anymore thankful for this!! And I am so glad that we are one close family together ♥

Due to unreasonable financial reason, his daughter did not manage to get him a 60th birthday present but she did made up to getting a small birthday cake that he complained about. Awaiting for the next 10 years! Let's hope I would be having a slightly more than just good pay job soon.


20 May 2013

Falling into pieces

Now it is all starting to fall into pieces. Why didn't it came to my sense 10 years back? Is this supposed to be the right time where I look back and tell myself, "Damn, if only...... Just if only I could turn back time to mend things," Nope it's too late for "if only's", too late to even feel regret for I chose this road and these are the consequences to bare.Did I expect this to come? Well maybe deep down in me sorta. Sorta expected it to come but sorta want it to come not this soon. I guess there's a reason why the Chinese saying was created.

Maybe after all it was always this. Maybe this was always the problem, the cause of whatever I faced. It's starting to make a lot of sense. As much as I hate to admit, as much I would love to continue living in denial, this can't go far anymore isn't it? It is starting to become a problem to everything I do.

Do I still believe in God? I'd say 50 50. I don't know how does this God system work. Does anyone hear my prayers?? Does anyone hear me when I desperately need certain things to come true? Does anyone hear me crying myself to bed wishing tomorrow and future would be better? Does anyone hear me when I say I need guidance on what to do? Seriously, I don't quite know anymore.

I know I don't depend on my prayers to make things come true. Decision is in my hand. I can't put my hopes on God, constantly telling myself that, "For whatever that happens today, there will always be a cause and reason to it. God have arrangements for you. This is a phase of life!" Can I still be this positive? Honestly, no.

All I hope for now is a positive change in myself. I just want things to start falling back into the right pieces and I'll be the most contented girl ever. There is only one hope I'm hoping for. Not being greedy am I?

May the force be with you, Vivian.


06 May 2013

Happy birthday, Amelia!

Can't believe I am a month late lollllllll. I think I gotta start picking up my commitment and efficiency from the trash. It must be there somewhere I believe. Well, the last time I check it was there.

Anyway, on the 11th of April, borned a very bright, intelligent and wise girl whom is now a lady. And we celebrated her birthday together at Fatty Crab! Not the best place for birthday celebrations but we sure did came home with a super bloated of toasts breads and chicken wings. Fatty Crab had been raved by many and was more than happy to finally have the chance to try it out. I'll probably give it a 6/10? I just don't seem to like it as much as everyone does. The crabs were not fresh and the price was krrraazzehh. But nevertheless, we all had a good night! Head over to TTDI for a round of drink and some games before calling it a night.

FOTN. Been having quite a fucked up eyelid.

Mai darling.


Baobei birthday girl!


Group shot with the boys. Sober night but everyone's blood seems to be flowing pretty well lol

Once again, merry birthday love. xx