21 March 2017

To my favourite furniture shop

“Where you moving?”

“Onto better things,” I said.

No la, I kid. Such deep answers can never come from me I guess. I’ve mentioned this on Dayre already but would like to say it again because well, no apparent reasons. Just because I feel like it.

What started off as a coincidental “fate” when I was applying for my first job, ended up, showing me the amazing peoples that I could possibly meet at work. I definitely do not have a thing for furnitures or decorating my space. But, it had grew on me. This giant blue and yellow furniture shop have grown as a part of me.

It had actually nurtured, shaped, guided and brought me to where I stand today. Less than a year at work, I already felt like I was at my comfort zone. I love my job, I love my coworkers and I actually enjoyed going to work and finish off tasks! Sure, there are times where it was so challenging but as a team, we managed to complete everything.

I have my bad days. I dread thinking of what to have for breakfast. I dread having to jam to work everyday and trying to be as punctual (thou I was never late, but I really just wanted to be one of the first few to reach to work), I dread coming back from work. Boy, that’s the toughest part. Don’t get me started on the rainy days. I dread to meet every tight deadlines. I once had panic attack every day for almost a month just because the deadlines were really, really tight. I dread having to stay back JUST to meet deadlines.

But you know work is work and you ought to complete it. I am no workaholic. I am a strong believer on work-life balance. I hate receiving emails/text from agencies after my working hours. I also… maybe… don’t really like receiving texts from my boss over the weekend. I really just want my time off and enjoy my weekend while I can still have it.

After almost two years, I’ve also decided that it’s time to move on to better things in life. I choose to believe that there are better things awaiting me out there in this hectic and fast paced world.

The economy is definitely not kind to everyone of us. I wish I could proudly say that I am not affected. Growing up is no joke pfft. But I’ve also managed to land myself on a nice and decent job at such tough time. Also many many thanks to my fav boss for helping me out. She doesn’t owe me anything, but she’ve gone to take the extra measure to help me hunt for jobs. I really really cannot be anymore thankful.

It’ve only been a month since my new role kicked in. I won’t deny but I struggled so bad during the first two weeks. But yeah, it just kinda takes time to adjust and adapt. I’m in good hands now people!

Why do you think you are actually getting a piece of my mind now?

Well, that’s just cos I have nothing to do at work wtf.

Vivi.

09 December 2015

An overview of 2015 and 2016 New Year's resolution

Hello... It's me... I was wondering if after all these years you'd like to hear from me....

Or may be not?

I'm unofficially on my long leave break and I'm really enjoying all the rest I'm getting. Picking up from where I last updated, yes I'm officially working and even before work, I've longed stopped writing and converted to micro-blogging and I honestly doubt anyone's reading this but as I've always mentioned, this is only solely for a personal memory.

I haven't come very far from where I last stopped but I've put in great amount of effort to my job. Ironically, I'm always that girl whose known to look for a 'job', not so much of a career. But for some apparent reasons, I've slowly grown to want to do more and achieve more in life. I don't want to look back 10 years down the road and have lots of regrets with lots of "could have" in my mind. Hopefully 10 years later I'm also married of course wtf.

I'm very attached to my company and sometimes I'm afraid that I will never leave this place. 人望高处 they say, but comfort to me wins more than anything. I love my job and I love what I'm doing and honestly I think I'm pretty good at what I'm doing too. I work with an amazing group of ladies whom I know I could count on and they would hear me out. Yes, tried and tested. Everyone in my team is very welcoming and I could not thank enough for my superiors who really tried to help me get what I want. I'm really not so confident that I could find the same treatment out there you know.

I'm learning a lot and I'm just thankful for all the chances that I've given to prove myself for my dedication and hard work. I'm really keeping my fingers crossed that I could be converted to a full timer. After all, the benefits still varies. From time to time, there are companies that approaches me whom I feel that I could grow and learn even more but I know it will never be the same as how it is as compared to my current company. Am I baptized? I guess so.. But I have a timeline for myself that I wish that I could achieve more than just what I have now. And if the time is up and I am not able to get what I want, I guess that's the time where I bid my farewells.

2015 was a brand new start of a chapter in my life. I have my ups and downs but their not something that have impacted my life a lot in any way. As I grow older, honestly I only want the best of health to people I dearly care and love. Nothing beats more than happiness, world peace and leave those poor animals alone!

I guess the next time I'm writing, it would be Dec 2016.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year in advance everybody.

V xx

03 April 2015

Gone with the wind?

Hej you! That's how we greet people in our office. While I may have grew out of the phase of blogging on blogs, I grew a love for blogging on-the-go on micro-blogs. Catch me on dayre.me/ohmyvivian if you're keen. I just had a quick look on the analytics and to my dismay, I have at least 10 page views? Haha honestly wasn't expecting any as I'm completely on hiatus. AFK. GONE. Whatever you may call.

But I knew I needed to keep this chapter jotted down and I do read my old posts from time to time. It’s always good to reminisce because it is something I do reflect on. Well, as of 16th March 2015, I have joined a furniture company. Not a difficult guess but it shan’t be disclosed either. Everyone knows my passionate love towards the beauty field. I love it, from skincare to beauty tools, there’s nothing I don’t love about beauty. But if I were to pick one, maybe it’s the competition between women that I don’t anticipate for. I tried sending several CVs over but there weren’t any replies.

I was on a hunt for jobs for 2 months. It’s nothing depressing but I just thought besides going to Taiwan in January, I could’ve been to even more places. That’s probably my only regret. The company I joined was out of pure luck I’d say. I chanced upon it by faith wtf while submitting CV’s for other companies. I honestly didn’t expect a reply nor did I even expect them to see it. Guess they take applications quite seriously. 1 month later when I was pretty down about not having replies after sending it to 6 companies, I finally received an interview opportunity.

And as I typed this, I was just handed over a bundle of work. Intended to skip lunch but a newbie rule is to never skip lunch because it’s the best bonding session. Its too soon for me to say that I love it here but I do love everything that is provided here. The really dirt cheap meals really saves my purse from burning. All is good thus far. My job scope is something that I also did not expect to come across. It’s easy but challenging in a way. Everyday I’m learning something new and you know what’s most important? The people I’m working with. They are really nice and pretty caring people I’d say.

Even though I might not be here for long but this choice was one of the best decision I had made. I embarked this journey with full motivation and enthusiasm of wanting to do well and showing people what I have got to offer. I had my thoughts on hold when I was called upon but really thankful that I did not make an impulsive decision to decline or else you will find me sulking over my bad decision and crying over a spilled milk wtf.

Okay. It’s 3pm now and I’ve got really, really lots of work to be done.

V.

13 September 2014

20 facts

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The 20 facts kraze that had been going around on instagrams and facebook reminds me so much of the friendster days where we often posts something similar like that? What was that called again lololol.

Hehehehe you must have thought I shamelessly want to this myself. Tagged by @maycih but I refuse to do it on instagram or facebook >:( It makes the post so long and difficult to type and scroll through. I might as well write this on this blog and read it back again ten years later and have a good laugh myself.

1. I am never below the weight of 50kg. All my life I had always been fat and hehehe I've a big belly. Its a legit belly that looks like a beer belly but its not a beer belly.

2. I have Trypophobia (holes wtf) and major afraid of snakes and syringes/injections. My tolerance for pain is ZERO.

3. My name Vivian is not written in my BC. Hehehe, it was just one of those random days where I woke up and told my mom that I want a name that people can easily call instead of my chinese name which half of the time people try to make fun of wtf. Gone were my Std 1 days.

4. 'Vivian' was named after 周慧敏 Vivian Chow, an HK actress and singer. My mom said she's beautiful. But then again, she also said Princess Diana was beautiful. I picked Vivian over Diana anytime LOLOLOLOL.

5. Half of the time I tell people I am broke. BUT, I'm definitely not a cheapskate. Yknow how sometimes when your bank hits a certain figure and the alarm in you just rang and scream STAHP STAHP STAHP SPENDING MONEY YOU LIL BEEEEETCH. My alarm always rung in this case.

6. I'm very very blessed with the amount of love and care I receive from friends, family and bf. It feels very much impossible sometimes. Bc the amount of annoyance and shit I bring to people is insane. I love the joy of driving people crazy HEHEHEHE and doing absolutely disgusting stuff to everybody.

7. HEHEHEHEHE I can do very disgusting stuff. But if we're not close, you probably won't figure that I'm such a person hahahaha!!

8. I complain a lot. I'm just a very whiny bitch. I can go on and on and on.

9. I used to have ZERO patience. But I guess when you're in a rship, you inevitably learn to have one because couples drives each other nuts.

10. They say I don't look stupid but I do a lot of stupid stuff all the time. But in my defend, if I don't do stupid stuff, you will happy meh? You will laugh so hard meh? Right or not?!

11. I have the exact personality like my mother. Hence when people say I drive them nuts, I have a mother who half of the time annoys me as well.

12. I can't watch any pets related movie/video. Don't even start with animal cruelty/abusing. I can't put myself to watching it and crying my eyeballs out.

13. Which explains that I have a very soft spot for animals. Dogs especially. I'm okay with cats... but I don't get to play with them very often.

14. I am spoilt by my friends. So spoilt that they set the benchmark so high to find a boyfriend HEHEHEHEHE. They are the kind of people that would give in to me (provided I am not overboard la wtf) and would hardly say no to me. If I wanna go here, they bring me hereeee. When I wanna go there, they bring me thereeeeeeee.

15. I get stressed up and nervous very easily. & when I'm feeling like that, half of the time I don't understand what is people trying to tell me because the brain is clogged wtf. And when I'm feeling nervous, I get butterflies in my tummy and its when I need to shit. Like literally.

16. I'm a bad listener. Hence why I'm not only bad at listening people out but also really bad in dictation. When I had to jot down really important information of what the person on the line was saying, I could barely write anything.

17. I have 2 elder brothers. Difference of 8 and 5 years. But we have quite a strong bond and blend along quite closely and all these happens only as we grew older. Speaking of which, I've never had any physical fights with my siblings before.

18. I love any food with pandan, santan, coconut and gula melaka. Very bad for health but very good for my emotions. It makes me happy all day long. Cendol, coconut shake, sago gula melaka, pandan cake, etc oh god, I'm drooling now lololol.

19. I have very limited intake of vegetables everyday. I'm carnivorous instead of omnivorous. The kind of vege I eat are.. kangkung, paku, coral, four angled beans (this one super love one), lady finger (must cook in curry or assam).... I think that's about it. But right, cook anything with sambal or super spicy, I will have more intake of it than usual.

20. I have quite an OCD. I arrange my money from small to big, big to small. Feets must be washed before getting on my bed. Apps must be in folders for organization purposes. My desktop screen must be clean, there are only 2 shortcuts; recycle bin and itools which I can't delete it off. When my car petrol mileage can't hit at least 420km, I get super annoyed. I save my favorite food last to eat unless I'm sharing with someone else then I'll eat my favorite food first lololol. When I have curry, sambal or assam, I like my rice all covered with it. When I liquid something off my writing, I will wait until its dry before I proceed writing with the next word.

That's about it! Damn, its not easy writing 20 leh wtf. I nearly gave up at 5 hahahahahaha! I'm hoping this is something I would look and have a good laugh ten or twenty years later and say omfg what was I thinking when I was younger?

I hope everyone's good! Tata for now. X

14 April 2014

Your presence means too much

Pain. But who can possibly understand? There's nothing that I can do to make you feel better. I don't blame you but all I wanted was for you to know that I'll always be here for you no matter what. I just need you to not give up on us and hold onto this tightly.

When the world fails on you, I'm always here. When you're on the verge of giving up, I hope you would remember the reason why we decided to do this together. Why and how did faith brought us back after 4 years.

有些话,你真的好像挂在嘴边。很轻易的就说出口,你就不能想下我听到的感受是如何吗?痛,但不会也不能说些什么。只是想告诉你,亲爱的,累了的话 我的肩膀也可以给你靠的。

28 January 2014

Feelings

"Because to say is easy, to do is difficult,"


Only when you love yourself,


I can do this. I can impress. I can do good. I can feel good. I can be pretty. I can love others. I can be loved. I can be confident. I can surprise. I can be proud. I can work this out. I can throw away disappointment. I can amaze. I can let go of this.

I'm positive. I didn't took that step to go through another round of disappointment. I did it for my own good. For I know, I will work things out and bring back that smile. I will mend my mistakes and never put it on repeat. For I know, the pain and sorrow that I caused was too hurtful.

People say, people make mistakes. I say its incomparable.

I close my eyes and pray.

xx